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meh. don't have brain for crochet (my two active projects take a bit of concentration and I don't have other yarn reachable), can't write, just wanna go to bed.

(also, it is fucking exhausting dealing with emotions. especially things like a "wah I will never be able to write anything as good as $awesome_fic" sulkitude of jealousy that is simultaneously understandable and unreasonable, and then my "I am a horrible person for feeling that way" backlash doesn't help.)