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urgh

bowels decided to threaten to explode (assplode?) in agony ... *after* morning aide left

(and I don't just mean urgency, we're talking sobbing-and-hyperventilating agony on top of urgency, like there's a bowling ball in there)

of the aides that live close, one "almost cut my finger off last night, i can come do it one-handed, or if (other aide) can do it i should probably go get stitches if it's not too late"

(...)

other aide is at IHSS orientation so she can get paid

stepmom is driving me to an appointment today, so I asked if she could come early

"earliest I could do is noon but 12:15 would be better"

that's when we need to leave

"oh right"

...sob

and some people think "woe I can't walk" is the worst part of being disabled and in a wheelchair ...

cpap fun

Tonight starts a week of CPAP testing, to find out if and how much a CPAP helps my sleep issues. Not sure which direction to cross my fingers -- I'd love better quality sleep, but the last thing I need is yet ANOTHER machine to use and maintain...