wanna know the stupid thing? part of why I haven't pushed for higher is I *feel like a fraud*. because my pain is down to "only" 2-4 on the pain scale (even though it's not a competition), because I don't take the max I'm currently prescribed for (2x/day but I only reliably take it evenings because morning is pre-caffeine and I hurt less; I'm not really aware of hurting until mid afternoon) and therefore "obviously" shouldn't need more, etc. so even though current amounts aren't enough, because I'm still hurting, I feel weird asking for more.
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Date: 2015-08-05 01:13 am (UTC)wanna know the stupid thing? part of why I haven't pushed for higher is I *feel like a fraud*. because my pain is down to "only" 2-4 on the pain scale (even though it's not a competition), because I don't take the max I'm currently prescribed for (2x/day but I only reliably take it evenings because morning is pre-caffeine and I hurt less; I'm not really aware of hurting until mid afternoon) and therefore "obviously" shouldn't need more, etc. so even though current amounts aren't enough, because I'm still hurting, I feel weird asking for more.
brains can be dumb.