External validation helps a lot 💜💜💜 thank you.
Reiki definitely has an effect for me -- and the Skeptical Asshat in my head is going "yeah but how much of that is just lying quietly for an hour, I mean really" -- but for one thing even just lying in a quiet space *with someone touching me* is huge (and even though I get touch from my aides, and as many hugs as I want from my mom, I am kind of starved for meaningful touch, which reiki provides in spades without the dangers of deep massage), and for another thing even if it were entirely placebo effect, which I don't think it is, it's still an effect.
But I definitely feel better after sessions. And am less cranky and snappish, and feel lighter, and hurt less overall.
My dad ... I don't know for sure that he'd fall on the skeptic side, but he tends towards Being Realistic and such. (My mom is more of a woo person, to the point of wanting to go see Sylvia Brown after her dad died, ugh.) I *can* defend reiki to him, but I don't want to have to, yknow? And the person giving me Reiki was very much "hint hint we have scholarships please use them" at me. So ... I mean, yeah, my mom's kind of being an ass with that. It's not even like I was all "GIB ME REIKI FOR FREE OR I WILL POUT"; I let *them* set the terms of how much of it I pay. I'm happy with the arrangement. My mom ... likes to gripe.
But reiki is seriously awesome. And when my mom isn't complaining about money, it's a good bonding activity for us -- one of the reiki things we have is a two-at-a-time Reiki session once a month, with two practitioners and two clients, and so it's a thing we do "together" that doesn't really involve interacting much. (I also am having private sessions right now; when I found out about the thing with my roommate moving, one of the first things I did, after flailing by email at my therapist, was flail by email at one of my reiki people, who completely understood and wants me to be getting it about four times s month while I'm in the stressful transition period, and I am *not* arguing.)
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Date: 2017-08-15 05:10 am (UTC)Reiki definitely has an effect for me -- and the Skeptical Asshat in my head is going "yeah but how much of that is just lying quietly for an hour, I mean really" -- but for one thing even just lying in a quiet space *with someone touching me* is huge (and even though I get touch from my aides, and as many hugs as I want from my mom, I am kind of starved for meaningful touch, which reiki provides in spades without the dangers of deep massage), and for another thing even if it were entirely placebo effect, which I don't think it is, it's still an effect.
But I definitely feel better after sessions. And am less cranky and snappish, and feel lighter, and hurt less overall.
My dad ... I don't know for sure that he'd fall on the skeptic side, but he tends towards Being Realistic and such. (My mom is more of a woo person, to the point of wanting to go see Sylvia Brown after her dad died, ugh.) I *can* defend reiki to him, but I don't want to have to, yknow? And the person giving me Reiki was very much "hint hint we have scholarships please use them" at me. So ... I mean, yeah, my mom's kind of being an ass with that. It's not even like I was all "GIB ME REIKI FOR FREE OR I WILL POUT"; I let *them* set the terms of how much of it I pay. I'm happy with the arrangement. My mom ... likes to gripe.
But reiki is seriously awesome. And when my mom isn't complaining about money, it's a good bonding activity for us -- one of the reiki things we have is a two-at-a-time Reiki session once a month, with two practitioners and two clients, and so it's a thing we do "together" that doesn't really involve interacting much. (I also am having private sessions right now; when I found out about the thing with my roommate moving, one of the first things I did, after flailing by email at my therapist, was flail by email at one of my reiki people, who completely understood and wants me to be getting it about four times s month while I'm in the stressful transition period, and I am *not* arguing.)