food stuff redux
Sep. 11th, 2022 07:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobeltried a more blood sugar appropriate dinner. It had veg from the Good List (green beans lightly steamed, carrots raw and shaved thin) as well as protein and what's probably an ok amount of carbs.
It was delicious and also utter hell.
If you've ever been super sick, the kind where you can't even get out of bed, there's a part of recovery where you go "oh hey I'm better now!"
and walk to the bathroom on your own, only by the time you get there you're weak and trembly and wondering how the hell it feels like the hallway was 5 miles of peak-of-Everest climbing when it used to be flat.
...That is kind of like chewing. I (used to) like crunchy things, but right now chewing a single bite of steamed green beans leaves my jaw hurting and exhausted. And while some things can be swallowed without complete chewing (it may not be ideal consumption but it doesn't hurt going down), things like carrots and green beans... really can't.
I have faulty hunger signals, and even faultier full signals. At a guess it's 80% adhd and 20% not having full control over food and timing thereof. (Blood sugar issues don't help, because my brain has learned that dropping blood sugar means the same as hunger, and that's applied even if it's falling to normal from a high spike.) But the "full" signals are even more broken now, because my jaw sends "no we are DONE" overrides.
I'm interested in how blood sugar patterns go, but I legitimately cannot tell if I ate enough or if I just gave up...
It was delicious and also utter hell.
If you've ever been super sick, the kind where you can't even get out of bed, there's a part of recovery where you go "oh hey I'm better now!"
and walk to the bathroom on your own, only by the time you get there you're weak and trembly and wondering how the hell it feels like the hallway was 5 miles of peak-of-Everest climbing when it used to be flat.
...That is kind of like chewing. I (used to) like crunchy things, but right now chewing a single bite of steamed green beans leaves my jaw hurting and exhausted. And while some things can be swallowed without complete chewing (it may not be ideal consumption but it doesn't hurt going down), things like carrots and green beans... really can't.
I have faulty hunger signals, and even faultier full signals. At a guess it's 80% adhd and 20% not having full control over food and timing thereof. (Blood sugar issues don't help, because my brain has learned that dropping blood sugar means the same as hunger, and that's applied even if it's falling to normal from a high spike.) But the "full" signals are even more broken now, because my jaw sends "no we are DONE" overrides.
I'm interested in how blood sugar patterns go, but I legitimately cannot tell if I ate enough or if I just gave up...