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Jan. 20th, 2011 02:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelI am abnormally hyperfidgetyrestless. no clue why. is very annoying when I can't actually really move. Or go anywhere arghflargl.
*jitters leg*
It doesn't even feel like useful productive energy. Just ... I want to go for a long hard run. 'cept for the part where I can't. (And going for a long wheelchair-ride doesn't have the same amount of physical release. does have some mental release -- it's amazing how much physical stuff is really mental -- but can't go anywhere as CHAIR IS NOT FIXED YET gaaaah.)
*taps finger against keyboard*
and I am, unsurprisingly, procrastinating working on my stargate big bang. I know that I just need to churn out a rough draft and then go from there but my editorbrain is all NOOO MUST BE PERFECT FIRST TIME and --
/headtilt/
(well, virtual headtilt. my head does not actually tilt.)
I don't know I can't even keep track of what I'm saying. Or thinking. This is disturbingly like the side effect I had with ... some med or other ... but I'm not taking that, and I haven't changed meds at all, so there is no rhyme or reason for this.
Well, no, there are plenty of rhymes for 'this'. But that's not the point.
...also my hip hurts, which is partly because of bad seating positions and partly because of FOP shit happening there and partly idek.
mehhh.
ETA: It is an indication of my mindset right now that not two minutes after posting the entry, I am refreshing my friends page going "why has no one commented or written a new entry or done omething hurry up people". /facepalm/
*jitters leg*
It doesn't even feel like useful productive energy. Just ... I want to go for a long hard run. 'cept for the part where I can't. (And going for a long wheelchair-ride doesn't have the same amount of physical release. does have some mental release -- it's amazing how much physical stuff is really mental -- but can't go anywhere as CHAIR IS NOT FIXED YET gaaaah.)
*taps finger against keyboard*
and I am, unsurprisingly, procrastinating working on my stargate big bang. I know that I just need to churn out a rough draft and then go from there but my editorbrain is all NOOO MUST BE PERFECT FIRST TIME and --
/headtilt/
(well, virtual headtilt. my head does not actually tilt.)
I don't know I can't even keep track of what I'm saying. Or thinking. This is disturbingly like the side effect I had with ... some med or other ... but I'm not taking that, and I haven't changed meds at all, so there is no rhyme or reason for this.
Well, no, there are plenty of rhymes for 'this'. But that's not the point.
...also my hip hurts, which is partly because of bad seating positions and partly because of FOP shit happening there and partly idek.
mehhh.
ETA: It is an indication of my mindset right now that not two minutes after posting the entry, I am refreshing my friends page going "why has no one commented or written a new entry or done omething hurry up people". /facepalm/
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Date: 2011-01-21 02:45 am (UTC)I'm a twitcher, too. Sometimes I twitch so hard I wake myself up, scaring myself. RIdiculous.
Yes a fast trip down the bike path can be quite cathartic. I also can move in the pool, and that's nice to get the ya ya's out.
I'm eager to read your Big Bang when it's writtten.
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Date: 2011-01-21 07:08 pm (UTC)would music help at all? The right playlist makes a huge difference to me when I'm feeling antsy and scattered but can't just head off and go for a swim etc. ('right' in this context being spectacularly subjective and mostly achieved by flipping through my player on random until something doesn't grate on me ...)