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Feb. 12th, 2010 07:01 pmI am finally back on all of the meds I am supposed to take. (There was a very long period -- well, not as long as it felt like -- where one of my meds was lost in a "requires authorization" black hole. I finally told them to pass it by my main doctor instead of the psychdoc. Gah. (And then when the prescription got filled, the pharmacy put in five pills instead of 30. yeahno.)
Feelings of dissatisfaction remain. Some of it, I'm sure, is the med fuckup; some of it is hormones doing wacky things (there are times I wish I were a boy); some of it is general failure to cope. I am not doing well at getting things done, or responding to communications, or, uh, other things. *flail*
It's also leeching over into WoW a bit. My shaman's DPS is complete and utter crap, which I suppose isn't helped by the fact that all of my badgers are going to heal gear rather than enh gear; my healing I am excessively insecure about, since, well. Rogue = dps. Shaman solo = dps with some self-heals as necessary. Group heal = ogmwtf what am I doing *flailspaz*.
(on the bright side, I just successfully healed the holiday boss. healing was significantly easier than dpsing, although it probably depends on the group makeup. ...and I got three of the four loot rolls. not that getting three abyss crystals out of it is bad, but it is a little wtfy.)
(... I then healed a random, and, er. sort of ended up getting the dk dps killed twice and me killed once. oops. I was doing well until the end...)
I do think I figured out why I prefer enh to ele for shaman dps: apparently, my brain is under the strong impression that ele makes a good ranged dps, but since I do a lot of solo stuff -- I am a very weird MMORPG player, since I generally ignore the MMO aspect as much as possible; grouping with friends is good, but PVP is not my thing, and I am allergic to PUGs, but that's beside the point -- I like non-interruptable instant shit, like smashing stuff in the face with maces, rather than spellcasting.
... anyway.
Knitting is still frustrating as fuck, in the sense of hi I can't do anything. I am seriously considering ditching the current![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
dwsockclub project, given that I am nowhere close to even getting one even a quarter done, and trying something else, even though I know rationally that it won't help. It's not the project that's wrong, it's that my hands can't do it, at least not yet.
(It is very easy for me to get trapped in a "I can't do X right now, therefore I will never be able to do X" fallacy. I mean, technically, it's true for some things, eg flying or telekinesis; but it doesn't take skill learning into account. When I got my second chair, which drives /totally differently/ than the chair I had before, I was convinced I'd never be able to navigate in small spaces. Which I can, now.)
Hi, my updates are boring. Sorry ^_^ (it's miles better than any entry I could have written yesterday though.)
Feelings of dissatisfaction remain. Some of it, I'm sure, is the med fuckup; some of it is hormones doing wacky things (there are times I wish I were a boy); some of it is general failure to cope. I am not doing well at getting things done, or responding to communications, or, uh, other things. *flail*
It's also leeching over into WoW a bit. My shaman's DPS is complete and utter crap, which I suppose isn't helped by the fact that all of my badgers are going to heal gear rather than enh gear; my healing I am excessively insecure about, since, well. Rogue = dps. Shaman solo = dps with some self-heals as necessary. Group heal = ogmwtf what am I doing *flailspaz*.
(on the bright side, I just successfully healed the holiday boss. healing was significantly easier than dpsing, although it probably depends on the group makeup. ...and I got three of the four loot rolls. not that getting three abyss crystals out of it is bad, but it is a little wtfy.)
(... I then healed a random, and, er. sort of ended up getting the dk dps killed twice and me killed once. oops. I was doing well until the end...)
I do think I figured out why I prefer enh to ele for shaman dps: apparently, my brain is under the strong impression that ele makes a good ranged dps, but since I do a lot of solo stuff -- I am a very weird MMORPG player, since I generally ignore the MMO aspect as much as possible; grouping with friends is good, but PVP is not my thing, and I am allergic to PUGs, but that's beside the point -- I like non-interruptable instant shit, like smashing stuff in the face with maces, rather than spellcasting.
... anyway.
Knitting is still frustrating as fuck, in the sense of hi I can't do anything. I am seriously considering ditching the current
dwsockclub project, given that I am nowhere close to even getting one even a quarter done, and trying something else, even though I know rationally that it won't help. It's not the project that's wrong, it's that my hands can't do it, at least not yet.(It is very easy for me to get trapped in a "I can't do X right now, therefore I will never be able to do X" fallacy. I mean, technically, it's true for some things, eg flying or telekinesis; but it doesn't take skill learning into account. When I got my second chair, which drives /totally differently/ than the chair I had before, I was convinced I'd never be able to navigate in small spaces. Which I can, now.)
Hi, my updates are boring. Sorry ^_^ (it's miles better than any entry I could have written yesterday though.)