/facepalm/

My inner twelve-year-old is going *absolutely nuts* over the whole Valdemar fusion. Because, I mean, straight XMFC is one thing (that I am highly addicted to omg), but put them in Valdemar and suddenly it's *~*lifebonds*~* and *~*epic twu wuv*~* and *~*destiny*~* and all sorts of ridiculous unrealistic *~*squee*~*.

So I have an inner twelve year old going ":D :D :D :D wheeeeeeeeeeee :D :D :D :D :D" and my inner editor sort is all "...I am going to just ignore all this lalala" and it's generally awesome and way too much fun \o/

I have to reread the Vanyel era books (oh the HORROR however shall I cope /swoons dramatically/) to get the *~*proper feel*~* and all, but I've worked some stuff out already.

( babble ahoy! )

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In mostly unrelated news, I have Committed Porn (it's xmfc erik/charles, hence only mostly unrelated, but it's not part of the same project), but I am feeling insecure about it. The fact that it's anon on the kinkmeme doesn't help; I can't tell whether the lack of comments is because it's no good or because it's gotten lost. Anyone feel like taking a peek and telling me whether I should post it to AO3 or let it be?

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I so totally wish I could take what I am feeling and bottle it up and save it for a rainy day because, omg, you guys, I want to feel like this foreverrrrr. Well maybe not, because it might get boring after a bit, but it is just serious amounts of awesome.

* Went down to Farmer's Market and got some sun and some iced coffee and some fruits and it was just perfect weather and okay maybe stopping in at the rummage sale was a bad idea but I got a set of stacking organizational solid-wire bin-type thingies and they were a literal pain to carry home but I don't care because they are AWESOME

* and I am ridiculously squeeful about the Valdemar fusion, you guys have NO IDEA, and it totally helps that I am not alone in my squee, but I am having so much fun with it, and my inner editor is kind of ignoring the whole thing (which is doubly awesome because that's usually the voice of maybe-you-shouldn't and omg-this-sucks and this-is-way-too-sappy-and-unrealistic), and I am just UTTERLY GIDDY

* and apparently the porn I committed doesn't suck half as much as I expected, so I have posted it to AO3 here (warning - skip it is flagged for rape/noncon because it can be triggery in that respect, but it is consent play with already established boundaries) and I will be using it for a kink_bingo fill as soon as I can figure out what to classify it as. And write the other four stories.

* and I had this feeling, on the way back from running errands, of *wanting* to come home and write, which I have MISSED SO MUCH OMG /twirls/. (For so long it's been more "I should go back and write, meh", and I still get flickers of that, but right now my brain is all HI HERE HAVE WORDS SHINY SHINY WORDS and I'm not about to say no to that!)

* YOU GUYS YOU GUYS I AM HAPPY. ACTUALLY HAPPY. I'd totally forgotten what that felt like!

* (actually at this point I may be verging on manic. *snicker* but it's PRODUCTIVE and it feels AWESOME and I never want it to end)

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