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...there is a part of me that thinks I'm crazy -- and asking for disappointment -- in trying to learn Japanese. Because three writing systems, because very different language, because I have no real use for it and I could be spending my energy on languages that are useful (Spanish, Russian to a lesser extent) or languages that I'm more likely to succeed with (Spanish, German). That I came across a DW entry from a few years back where I was stopping doing German duolingo because the words weren't sticking, and *i used to be pretty close to fluent*. I don't have the same background with Japanese, and aside from the basics (konnichiwa, sayonara, arigato, hai, iie, 1-10) and English-adopted loanwords (sushi, samurai, haiku, etc) I have no prior knowledge, and the few words I've gotten so far aren't sticking. (I'm sort of remembering the alternate 4 and 7. Duo has also given me a few colors -- red white blue (aka shiro ao?) -- and the learn Japanese app has given me "half, half past" and "o'clock" both of which I'm blanking on -- but I just. I'm not really retaining, and I'm kind of worried about trying to get katakana as well as hiragana, and the voice in my head is going on about how stupid this all is and how I should just give up and stick with something easy or useful or sensible or whatever.

I know that some of this is brainweasels. The "you are going to mess up so why bother trying" non-logic is pretty signature. But I can't tell if it's also telling the truth...