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Jun. 30th, 2022 11:29 pmFeeling mopey about 1) how much time sleep takes, and b) not being able to move.
1 -- I don't do well if I stay up past midnight (I get up at 10am) but lately I've been needing afternoon nap and/or going to sleep at like 9 (which usually functions as a nap and then I'm awake for another hour or so) and still I rarely feel energized and I get hella tired in the afternoon.
(Today I ignored my body's signals and stayed awake so I could Do Art, and I have a half finished bee drawing and am a crying mess.)
2 -- there are the big things, like missing knitting / xstitch / origami / writing by hand / etc, but sometimes it's the little things. like not being able to scratch itchy spots, not being able to blow my own nose, not being able to clip my fingernails. I can get people to do these things but it's not the same at all.
also the art app I use has lovely features that I can't use because -- brushes can change size or opacity or color based on pressure and on pencil angle (if using an Apple Pencil) so there are art tutorials on YT where they do a nice shading effect by tilting the pencil differently. Except I don't move my hand so the pencil angle changes constantly, plus pressure is harder to control
Also also I need to find a way to prop my iPad up an inch or so when I'm in bed because right now my stomach is in the way of the bottom edge and while I can prop the iPad up with one finger, one joint of said finger is one of the few which has more of a hypermobility problem than immobility and the weight of the tablet plus the angle my finger is at is just enough to bend it backwards ow.
(Maybe I should go sleep...)
1 -- I don't do well if I stay up past midnight (I get up at 10am) but lately I've been needing afternoon nap and/or going to sleep at like 9 (which usually functions as a nap and then I'm awake for another hour or so) and still I rarely feel energized and I get hella tired in the afternoon.
(Today I ignored my body's signals and stayed awake so I could Do Art, and I have a half finished bee drawing and am a crying mess.)
2 -- there are the big things, like missing knitting / xstitch / origami / writing by hand / etc, but sometimes it's the little things. like not being able to scratch itchy spots, not being able to blow my own nose, not being able to clip my fingernails. I can get people to do these things but it's not the same at all.
also the art app I use has lovely features that I can't use because -- brushes can change size or opacity or color based on pressure and on pencil angle (if using an Apple Pencil) so there are art tutorials on YT where they do a nice shading effect by tilting the pencil differently. Except I don't move my hand so the pencil angle changes constantly, plus pressure is harder to control
Also also I need to find a way to prop my iPad up an inch or so when I'm in bed because right now my stomach is in the way of the bottom edge and while I can prop the iPad up with one finger, one joint of said finger is one of the few which has more of a hypermobility problem than immobility and the weight of the tablet plus the angle my finger is at is just enough to bend it backwards ow.
(Maybe I should go sleep...)