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One thing I am discovering is that I hate how I look right now.

It's not new -- not liking photos/videos of myself has been the case for a while -- but it hasn't come up much because I don't really do mirrors. But I'm taking progress pictures of my ear, and a) it looks horrible; b) I'm still adjusting to how much of the ear had to go (only like 1/5, but more than the hole-punch taken from my nose ten years ago, which needed no reconstruction); and c) my throat makes me look like a bullfrog (I tend towards double-chin-ness anyway because my head is fixed at a slightly downward angle, but it's super puffy lately because of the submandibular flareups I've been getting)

At least I have cute shirts and cute earrings ...