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[ysobel]

i have an annoying habit of trying to logic out my emotions

it doesn't really work

i am having major-for-me anxiety issues right now and there is no reason

i mean there are things that are contributing, like having to find new roommate stuff (and utterly failing at doing so), and utterly failing at writing for clarion, and utterly failing at being any sort of adult, and there is a total theme here of utter fail

and and and

and i can't handle anything

and i just want to curl up and gibber and rock back and forth

i fail so hard at everything

and i can't handle

and ffs even getting on Glitch sent me panicking like hell because i jadn't been on in a while (227 days) and there are ALL THE CHANGES and i can't even figure out my house

and

adgsdsafagsdsadgsdagasdgafgfadsasgasgd

/sobs/

Comments

[synecdochic]

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[krait]

Having just had an I Fail At Grownupping meltdown yesterday, I offer all my condolences.

I think brains just roll the random number generator for fail!meltdowns; there's not much to do but hold on and try to remember it's not as much of a FACT thing as it seems at the time. *hugs* You're awesome, and a great writer, and pretty darn amazing at handling life, considering the sheer variety of things it has thrown at you! Not dodging every one of the obstacles doesn't make you a failure; everybody clips a rail or misjudges a hurdle at times, even Olympic athletes.