I need a vacation
Oct. 31st, 2013 01:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobel...specifically, a vacation from being in this body.
Getting to/from the toilet is next to impossible with my knee the way it is, and trying (because the only other option is "pee my pants and also my wheelchair") is agonizing, even with painkillers, and running a significant risk of injuring me and/or my PA. Had a meltdown today because I'm not fucking strong enough and I literally cannot keep doing this but don't know what option I have.
(catheter isn't even an option -- a few years back when I smashed up my foot and was having problems transfering, though not quite as bad as this, I basically pleaded with my doctor to try to get one in, and they did try, and even the smallest catheter they had wouldn't fit. because I am a speshul snowflake.)
My doctor's referral has resulted in an appointment with a home health care person coming out for an eval this afternoon, and of course ideal would be for them to say "oh yes we can get you XYZ and that will work perfectly for you" but more likely it is going to be "oh I'm the wrong sort of person for this, you need to get a referral elsewhere"
(I more-or-less begged my dad to come over and back me up because I am so far out of cope I don't know that I can manage what needs to get done/said/etc, but ... yeah)
Sick of health issues, especially ones that crop up around my birthday. Last year it was Suri, now this...
(and it doesn't help that I had the bright idea of volunteering to run a crochet-a-long for this month, but it's for a paid pattern of non-basic tunisian crochet, so there are like two other people doing it, when this group usually gets 10-20 signing up, and I feel like an utter failure already)
(argh)
(and I'm sure the steroids aren't helping the feel-like-crap issue either)
Getting to/from the toilet is next to impossible with my knee the way it is, and trying (because the only other option is "pee my pants and also my wheelchair") is agonizing, even with painkillers, and running a significant risk of injuring me and/or my PA. Had a meltdown today because I'm not fucking strong enough and I literally cannot keep doing this but don't know what option I have.
(catheter isn't even an option -- a few years back when I smashed up my foot and was having problems transfering, though not quite as bad as this, I basically pleaded with my doctor to try to get one in, and they did try, and even the smallest catheter they had wouldn't fit. because I am a speshul snowflake.)
My doctor's referral has resulted in an appointment with a home health care person coming out for an eval this afternoon, and of course ideal would be for them to say "oh yes we can get you XYZ and that will work perfectly for you" but more likely it is going to be "oh I'm the wrong sort of person for this, you need to get a referral elsewhere"
(I more-or-less begged my dad to come over and back me up because I am so far out of cope I don't know that I can manage what needs to get done/said/etc, but ... yeah)
Sick of health issues, especially ones that crop up around my birthday. Last year it was Suri, now this...
(and it doesn't help that I had the bright idea of volunteering to run a crochet-a-long for this month, but it's for a paid pattern of non-basic tunisian crochet, so there are like two other people doing it, when this group usually gets 10-20 signing up, and I feel like an utter failure already)
(argh)
(and I'm sure the steroids aren't helping the feel-like-crap issue either)
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Date: 2013-10-31 10:46 pm (UTC)*virtual hand squeezes*
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Date: 2013-11-01 02:16 am (UTC)