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[ysobel]

This is kind of stupid, but

I'm watching a movie with James Macavoy

and getting super nostalgic about, like, early xmfc fandom and all the feels and stuff

and, like, I can't get back to that -- for one thing the follow up movies, half of which I haven't even seen, changed the landscape of the fandom; for another, there isn't the same enthusiasm that there was; for a third I can't fucking write any more -- and it just

I can't tell how much of my heartache right now is because of the Doomed Romance Of Charles And Erik (and how very pretty James looks when his character is Having Feelings) and how much is because I used to be so much better

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[princessofgeeks]

I don't think this is stupid at all.

[misbegotten]

Ha! I've been having a James McAvoy Renaissance in the past month for precisely the same reason. I even wrote Charles/Erik fic recently. But the heartache... it is there. They're so adorable together and I want only to read happy endings.