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ysobelSo, okay, animal crossing. In theory I am still in love with it. In theory there are so many things I want to do. There's the whole snow thing going on. There's stuff in preparation for Toy Day. There's putting away the Halloween decorations and putting up yuletide-ier things. There's balloon hunting, possibly with time travel, so that I get all the mushroom recipes and all the acorn recipes and all the maple leaf recipes and all the winter stuff. There's terraforming that I want to do (paw print island) and decorating I want to do (flower area). There's the other island, the new one, that needs to get to three stars so I can get KK so I can get terraforming so I can make fun things.
In theory.
And I want to do all this. Or at least I want to want to. But I get little flickers of excitement. And ... and then I go to play and my gut response is ".........there's too much *shuts down*" and I barely do anything.
The summer update that came out, the Halloween update, both these things I remember watching the promo videos and watching other videos talking about it, and I vaguely distantly remember being excited. Turkey day I ... did the stuff on one island but it was kind of slog-like. I know there are videos with what's new in December, and I haven't even looked. I'm almost scared to. The ac discord I'm on, is muted and I haven't looked in ages. The ac thread in one of my rav groups, ditto. I can't play, I can't do anything related to playing, I can't ... I just can't. It's like a weird mental paralysis.
To a very slight extent there is competing interest from my yoshi semi-obsession. I'm not good at yoshi by any means but I keep wanting to play more. But since both yoshi and ac are in cartridge form, and since I can't switch cartridges myself, that means I haven't touched my second island in ... fuck, I don't know. I know I've popped in once since getting yoshi, but only once.
But that doesn't explain the complete anti enthusiasm with the switch lite. It's frustrating because I want to want to play it, and I sometimes get the desire (sometimes at completely wrong times like midnight when I don't have my switch and should be sleeping, but sometimes at good playable times) and then ... it's like I have no fuel. The fire lights but it burns out quickly.
I wish I could enjoy it. Or, second choice by far, if I can't enjoy it I wish I could not care. But I'm trapped and frustrated. And feel oddly guilty every time I play yoshi instead.
Fucking brains.
In theory.
And I want to do all this. Or at least I want to want to. But I get little flickers of excitement. And ... and then I go to play and my gut response is ".........there's too much *shuts down*" and I barely do anything.
The summer update that came out, the Halloween update, both these things I remember watching the promo videos and watching other videos talking about it, and I vaguely distantly remember being excited. Turkey day I ... did the stuff on one island but it was kind of slog-like. I know there are videos with what's new in December, and I haven't even looked. I'm almost scared to. The ac discord I'm on, is muted and I haven't looked in ages. The ac thread in one of my rav groups, ditto. I can't play, I can't do anything related to playing, I can't ... I just can't. It's like a weird mental paralysis.
To a very slight extent there is competing interest from my yoshi semi-obsession. I'm not good at yoshi by any means but I keep wanting to play more. But since both yoshi and ac are in cartridge form, and since I can't switch cartridges myself, that means I haven't touched my second island in ... fuck, I don't know. I know I've popped in once since getting yoshi, but only once.
But that doesn't explain the complete anti enthusiasm with the switch lite. It's frustrating because I want to want to play it, and I sometimes get the desire (sometimes at completely wrong times like midnight when I don't have my switch and should be sleeping, but sometimes at good playable times) and then ... it's like I have no fuel. The fire lights but it burns out quickly.
I wish I could enjoy it. Or, second choice by far, if I can't enjoy it I wish I could not care. But I'm trapped and frustrated. And feel oddly guilty every time I play yoshi instead.
Fucking brains.
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Date: 2020-12-02 11:06 pm (UTC)I can be terrible about "shoulds." I'm housebound but not bedbound, and will use all my energy scraps to do chores. :/ Trying to treat myself better.