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Nov. 11th, 2009 11:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelMay 17th, 2008, I stepped away from LJ support, after six years there. It wasn't an easy decision.
I did have occasional touches after that: mostly on requests I opened, once a pseudo-IC on a request saying "I'm not back, but I wanted to point out this isn't $obvious_situation". I had some dreams about answering LJ spr0t requests, but nothing more. And I felt some guilt over the fact that LJ was so low-volunteer and high-volume, but guilt is not a reason to go back.
Yesterday, I actually answered some requests.
I had a minor spaz attack atzarhooie over the first one, not because I had any doubt about the answer, but because it was kind of this psychological threshold, crossing a line (that I thought I wouldn't even see again) that I couldn't undo. (I can stop answering requests, but I can't un-answer ones I've submitted to.)
It's ... kind of weird.
(I haven't gone back to LJ IRC; I don't know if I'm going to. I haven't re-set-up my support reading filter. I haven't said "hey, I'm back" to anyone. I don't know if anyone's even noticed (no, Kat, you still don't count :P) or if anyone remembers me from before. A year and a half is a long time, in LJ-volunteer measurements.)
(And I haven't written to s@, saying "yo I'm back can I prz have privs" [not looking for SH back of course, just I1 at least, which they probably wouldn't have a problem with, and maybe I2, because it is so weird not being able to see ICs]. I don't know if this is a passing phase that I'll wander off from in a few days, or if I really am going back, and if I'm going back, I don't know with what level of commitment.)
(and I don't know if they'd be more likely to say "omg yay isa's back" or "oh god isa's back flee while you can". >_>)
I did have occasional touches after that: mostly on requests I opened, once a pseudo-IC on a request saying "I'm not back, but I wanted to point out this isn't $obvious_situation". I had some dreams about answering LJ spr0t requests, but nothing more. And I felt some guilt over the fact that LJ was so low-volunteer and high-volume, but guilt is not a reason to go back.
Yesterday, I actually answered some requests.
I had a minor spaz attack at
zarhooie over the first one, not because I had any doubt about the answer, but because it was kind of this psychological threshold, crossing a line (that I thought I wouldn't even see again) that I couldn't undo. (I can stop answering requests, but I can't un-answer ones I've submitted to.)It's ... kind of weird.
(I haven't gone back to LJ IRC; I don't know if I'm going to. I haven't re-set-up my support reading filter. I haven't said "hey, I'm back" to anyone. I don't know if anyone's even noticed (no, Kat, you still don't count :P) or if anyone remembers me from before. A year and a half is a long time, in LJ-volunteer measurements.)
(And I haven't written to s@, saying "yo I'm back can I prz have privs" [not looking for SH back of course, just I1 at least, which they probably wouldn't have a problem with, and maybe I2, because it is so weird not being able to see ICs]. I don't know if this is a passing phase that I'll wander off from in a few days, or if I really am going back, and if I'm going back, I don't know with what level of commitment.)
(and I don't know if they'd be more likely to say "omg yay isa's back" or "oh god isa's back flee while you can". >_>)