i hear the voices when I'm dreaming

Yesterday I watched (via live stream) the most recent Canine Companions graduation. Two people I know, Phoebe's puppy raiser and then someone who's been helping me with her nails but is at this point also a friend, have puppies that were graduating, so I had extra motivation... but honestly, between the parade of dogs that are matriculating in for professional training and the new person-dog teams, it's adorable af regardless.

It's also gotten me thinking about my own training, the one just about two years ago (almost exactly-- graduation anniversary is the 10th) with Phoebe and the one 13 years ago with Yahtzee. I don't remember much from the Y one except for pieces, like him being so happy to see me again during graduation that he did a spontaneous Lap. I remember more about the P one, like her licking my elbow to say hi the second morning, and the absolute wiggly joy of her first night in my dorm room with me when she found a ball, and the first weekend home with her where she figured out that she could get me to play by putting a toy in my lap...

(I sometimes wonder if I'm good enough for her, but that's probably my insecurities talking, lol)

Idk, just having some dog feelings over here...

Have arrived. Dorm walls have dog photos. Eeeeee I am so excited... and nervous but mostly excited.

just got a call from CCI offering me a spot in the training session starting Jan 30 -- it's late notice because there was a cancellation, which is exactly the same as last time -- and aaaaaaaaaaaaa

have to figure out logistics; final yes/no answer by friday, then a week to finalize if it's yes, then two weeks of AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, then ZOMG NEW DOG

*hyperventilates, flappy-handed, and bursts into [happy?] tears*