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Oct. 12th, 2010 03:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelI am having one of those sorts of days where I want to go all *toddlerfistfootstamp* over everything.
Sigh.
Some of it is fixable. (My desk is a mess ... but that's what aides are for, and I still do have aides. I don't have any good active knitting projects ... but I have needles and yarn and that's what's important, right?)
Some of it is fixable if I can find a way to punch through the barriers of fear holding me in place. (Like trying to use some sort of tool to hold needles; my mind is going BUT WHAT IF I BREAK THEM ... because bamboo needles are so hard to find? Or like trying to do tutoring, which I'm just plain scared of.)
And some of it is just life.
Sometimes, I wish I were young enough to have a full-on tantrum without feeling embarrassed or idiotic about it.
Sigh.
Some of it is fixable. (My desk is a mess ... but that's what aides are for, and I still do have aides. I don't have any good active knitting projects ... but I have needles and yarn and that's what's important, right?)
Some of it is fixable if I can find a way to punch through the barriers of fear holding me in place. (Like trying to use some sort of tool to hold needles; my mind is going BUT WHAT IF I BREAK THEM ... because bamboo needles are so hard to find? Or like trying to do tutoring, which I'm just plain scared of.)
And some of it is just life.
Sometimes, I wish I were young enough to have a full-on tantrum without feeling embarrassed or idiotic about it.
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Date: 2010-10-13 12:05 am (UTC)p and i have an agreement that if one of us needs to express tantrumness we can tell the other..and sometimes just be able to say that, or to cry hard, or to yell (without triggering the other person) is enough to get out the stuff that wants stompyfeet. and even when it's not it does dial it down a bit, which is still helpful (for me, anywya, ymmv)