*falls over dead*

Slept HORRIBLY night before last, which was partly forgetting to take night meds and partly I don't know what. Slept horribly last night, despite meds. Do not expect sleep to go well tonight.

I have run out of story for my nano thing. I just feel utterly drained, like I've gone dry. I know creativity isn't supposed to work that way, it's something that you get more of the more you use it, but -- not right now. I am out of spoons and out of words and out of ideas and I just ... I can't go farther. I *can't*.

(if I had another week, I could take a day or two off as creative break and then work on some other story. but I don't.)

So. Final word count for this year's nano is 40k. (well, 40,305, technically.)

And I know I could artificially inflate the word count so I could get a shiny winner's badge because 40k is a hell of a lot more than I thought I would get, but I am cheating enough as it is (a lot of the words in the file are not really story) and I don't want to cheat more.

And I can't write.

So 40k it is.