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Mar. 17th, 2021 09:38 pmThe down side to neuropsych assessment (rather than psychiatrist) is that I am now in the limbo of Waiting.
This also includes a) endlessly re-combing through everything I said, b) fretting about the things I forgot to say (like how the duck did I forget misophonia as one of the sensory issues argh), c) wondering if I acted adhd enough, d) lamenting how well my memory did (I mean okay adrenaline helps but I feel weird going in with "working memory not working" as one of the complaints and then being able to recite seven digits backwards, though of course I don't know if I got them right), e) wanting to message them with some of the things I have thought of since (either stuff I forgot or complaints about the way shit was worded -- there was a question on the order of "when you see mountains do you think about how they were carefully crafted" or something like that, and like fuck no because careful and crafting are not words that go with mountains, it's ducking plate tectonics with things slamming into other things in slow motion, it's really fucking fascinating how mountains are formed but carefully crafted is not the right term, so I answered no but maybe I should have answered yes because I don't know the why behind the question), f) worrying that I was too smart for any adhd to come through (which intellectually is kind of ridiculous but also there's the whole ~you can't be adhd if you did well in school~ thing, g) wanting it to be results time already (follow up is scheduled for April 9), and h) wanting to hide under the bed.
Um.
On the bright side, I did send several (way overdue) emails today, so yay me.
This also includes a) endlessly re-combing through everything I said, b) fretting about the things I forgot to say (like how the duck did I forget misophonia as one of the sensory issues argh), c) wondering if I acted adhd enough, d) lamenting how well my memory did (I mean okay adrenaline helps but I feel weird going in with "working memory not working" as one of the complaints and then being able to recite seven digits backwards, though of course I don't know if I got them right), e) wanting to message them with some of the things I have thought of since (either stuff I forgot or complaints about the way shit was worded -- there was a question on the order of "when you see mountains do you think about how they were carefully crafted" or something like that, and like fuck no because careful and crafting are not words that go with mountains, it's ducking plate tectonics with things slamming into other things in slow motion, it's really fucking fascinating how mountains are formed but carefully crafted is not the right term, so I answered no but maybe I should have answered yes because I don't know the why behind the question), f) worrying that I was too smart for any adhd to come through (which intellectually is kind of ridiculous but also there's the whole ~you can't be adhd if you did well in school~ thing, g) wanting it to be results time already (follow up is scheduled for April 9), and h) wanting to hide under the bed.
Um.
On the bright side, I did send several (way overdue) emails today, so yay me.