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May. 1st, 2021 05:48 pmcrying again b/c ~I should be writing~
...conversation on twitter has me remembering back when I was teenagerish and reading, like, All The Things (at least in sff and ya), and wanted to grow up to be A Writer. Not just in the sense of person-who-writes, but someone who wrote books that meant as much to Their Readers as, like, Valdemar or Earthsea or w/e meant to me
and, like
between the physical difficulties with typing, and the crushing pressure I put on writing as the Last Decent Legitimate Career Option available to me?
I can't even finish *fanfic* any more, let alone anything publishable
I am never going to be A Writer
and that just
hurts
and it feels like I'm letting down ... everyone, really, but especially younger me
...conversation on twitter has me remembering back when I was teenagerish and reading, like, All The Things (at least in sff and ya), and wanted to grow up to be A Writer. Not just in the sense of person-who-writes, but someone who wrote books that meant as much to Their Readers as, like, Valdemar or Earthsea or w/e meant to me
and, like
between the physical difficulties with typing, and the crushing pressure I put on writing as the Last Decent Legitimate Career Option available to me?
I can't even finish *fanfic* any more, let alone anything publishable
I am never going to be A Writer
and that just
hurts
and it feels like I'm letting down ... everyone, really, but especially younger me