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ysobelI am alive! Still struggling with a lot of RL shit, still not keeping up in very many places.
Tl;dr summary of my life the last few weeks:
* found a Person Who Isn't My Mom to stay over for the period while roommate is out of town (three and a half weeks). Friend in Sacramento. So I seem to be surviving.
* Christmas was very quiet and peaceful. My sister had water heater explosion issues (and ensuing insurance / repair / etc shit to deal with) so didn't come in for xmas, and my mom went down there so wasn't bugging me. I came down with a mild cold that gave a good excuse for why I was being antisocial, but tbh I really just wanted peace and quiet. So Christmas Day was crochet and watching Die Hard.
* it feels very weird and wrong to not be involved in Yuletide at all. No pinch hits, no treats, no reading archive. Some of this is just indicative of my overall stress level, but it's way too easy to twist that into "I suck".
* several weeks ago my bed/mattress died (alternating air pressure mattress to keep me from getting pressure sores -- I can't shift position so it shifts under me -- but the pump died abruptly). Getting a new one is taking forever. I have a loaner mattress now (different brand and not quite as good, but at least aap) but it goes bzzzzzzt at random intervals and is driving me crazy.
* Loki somehow managed to lick the tip of his tail raw. He's in a cone -- soft rather than hard; the vet gave a hard plastic one but I was worried he would hurt himself and/or Yahtzee and/or me, so I got a soft one off amazon and he does better -- but he keeps getting out of it and re-raw-ing it. Sigh, cats. He has also started flopping down on me at night and demanding head scritches (especially since he can't scratch on his own with the cone) and I am a sucker.
* Monkey has also started climbing up on me sometimes, when I'm in bed. Usually around 4am but it varies a lot. She's less demanding of scritches, and does catloaf more than flop sprawl. If I'm doing something on the iPad it can be mildly annoying to have a cat blocking the screen but mostly I like it. Warm furry purring love puddles ftw.
* my stepmom apparently thinks I'm not allowed to get frustrated (or at least not allowed to get snippy ever) and thinks a frustrated tone is the worst insult ever and also thinks that a face to face confrontation about how horrible I am is the best way to go. (I will probably write out more details later, as part of processing what happened and how to respond.) I'm still both angry and somewhat traumatized. Mostly angry though. And brainweasels are loving it. The actual confrontation sent me into a shame / self-hate spiral for the day.
* Still addicted to Merge Dragons and to Zen Koi. (Also, lesserly so, to Zombie Castaways and Diggy's Adventure.) Also: There is Zen Koi 2. Similar principle, plus you can play with the dragons. I haven't done much with it.
* I did not know Lego makes dinosaur kits. Someone sent me a box as part of a surprise care package and I maybe made supersonic squeaking noises. Legosaurs!
Tl;dr summary of my life the last few weeks:
* found a Person Who Isn't My Mom to stay over for the period while roommate is out of town (three and a half weeks). Friend in Sacramento. So I seem to be surviving.
* Christmas was very quiet and peaceful. My sister had water heater explosion issues (and ensuing insurance / repair / etc shit to deal with) so didn't come in for xmas, and my mom went down there so wasn't bugging me. I came down with a mild cold that gave a good excuse for why I was being antisocial, but tbh I really just wanted peace and quiet. So Christmas Day was crochet and watching Die Hard.
* it feels very weird and wrong to not be involved in Yuletide at all. No pinch hits, no treats, no reading archive. Some of this is just indicative of my overall stress level, but it's way too easy to twist that into "I suck".
* several weeks ago my bed/mattress died (alternating air pressure mattress to keep me from getting pressure sores -- I can't shift position so it shifts under me -- but the pump died abruptly). Getting a new one is taking forever. I have a loaner mattress now (different brand and not quite as good, but at least aap) but it goes bzzzzzzt at random intervals and is driving me crazy.
* Loki somehow managed to lick the tip of his tail raw. He's in a cone -- soft rather than hard; the vet gave a hard plastic one but I was worried he would hurt himself and/or Yahtzee and/or me, so I got a soft one off amazon and he does better -- but he keeps getting out of it and re-raw-ing it. Sigh, cats. He has also started flopping down on me at night and demanding head scritches (especially since he can't scratch on his own with the cone) and I am a sucker.
* Monkey has also started climbing up on me sometimes, when I'm in bed. Usually around 4am but it varies a lot. She's less demanding of scritches, and does catloaf more than flop sprawl. If I'm doing something on the iPad it can be mildly annoying to have a cat blocking the screen but mostly I like it. Warm furry purring love puddles ftw.
* my stepmom apparently thinks I'm not allowed to get frustrated (or at least not allowed to get snippy ever) and thinks a frustrated tone is the worst insult ever and also thinks that a face to face confrontation about how horrible I am is the best way to go. (I will probably write out more details later, as part of processing what happened and how to respond.) I'm still both angry and somewhat traumatized. Mostly angry though. And brainweasels are loving it. The actual confrontation sent me into a shame / self-hate spiral for the day.
* Still addicted to Merge Dragons and to Zen Koi. (Also, lesserly so, to Zombie Castaways and Diggy's Adventure.) Also: There is Zen Koi 2. Similar principle, plus you can play with the dragons. I haven't done much with it.
* I did not know Lego makes dinosaur kits. Someone sent me a box as part of a surprise care package and I maybe made supersonic squeaking noises. Legosaurs!
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Date: 2018-01-02 03:56 pm (UTC)This sentence made me LOL: She's less demanding of scritches, and does catloaf more than flop sprawl
Flop sprawl with claws may be a contributing factor to the air mattress issue? MyGuy uses the bathtub to check for Roho leaks but you'd need a swimming pool for the mattress pad.
I have serious issues with your stepmom, and I'm sorry you had to go through that.
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Date: 2018-01-02 07:28 pm (UTC)Re stepmom -- I posted the full saga just now. It's really un-fun.
♥
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Date: 2018-01-04 12:28 pm (UTC)