i hear the voices when I'm dreaming

+ Am signed up for ficfinishing again. Hopefully it will not end up making me hate the story like last month did >_>

- Fell off 750words ... which was kind of inevitable, given that the last few weeks was mostly teeth-pulling-ly painful slogging through word count, whining about how I didn't have anything to say, and in a few cases just going "blah blah blah" over and over again. Am taking a bit of a break to refresh, will probably start again in August at the latest.

+ Got enough sleep last night that I actually didn't feel half-dead when I got up this morning. \o/ (It's not that I've been staying up too late; it's that I've been going to bed and then taking 2-5 hours to fall asleep.) Still feel like I have a sleep deficit, but that's hardly new.

+ New White Collar last night eeeeyay. *sparkly hearts*

- I am having buy-new-yarn twitches. It's not like I *need* new yarn -- I have plenty (although one project I want to do calls for feltable worsted weight yarn with long variegations in color, and most of my ww yarn is not feltable and also most of it is solid color) -- it's just, I don't know. Buying yarn makes me happy. It's a temporary happy, but. Yeah.

+ the awesome lace scarf of awesomeness is progressing nicely. It'll be interesting to see how blocking changes it, but I'm not going to worry about that until it's done

I do not guarantee that this will make any sort of sense whatsoever. Am on just enough pain meds that my brain is all fuzzy (but not enough that I can /enjoy/ being brainless, dammit). But, a summary of things:

* I have maintained my streak at 750words. 18 days and counting, so far. I suspect the first time I miss a day, it will be harder to get myself back into it -- momentum lost, and all that -- but still, not bad.

* I have also gotten stuff written for brigits_flame (for all of the two weeks I've been participating, which isn't really as long as it feels like). Though I swear I am the only person in the world who could possibly come up with a vampire story given "Strawberries" as a prompt. (Well, maybe not the only person, but it did make me go bwuh.) Stuff's posted at pen_and_ink if you want to follow along.

* My left shoulder is being very cranky, probably due to new computer adjustment wackiness and also to the fact that I'm using the mouse more with my left hand than my right and possibly other factors I'm not considering. This is the reason for the aforementioned pain meds, which don't actually make things stop hurting, which perhaps means that I should talk to my doctor about using a different sort of pain med, because "making hurty stuff non-hurty" is kind of a priority for pain meds. ("not making brain go boom" is nice but not as high on the list... but really, this is kind of failing at both.)

* As a result, I am afraid to knit. Which of course means that this is when knitting sounds like the /awesomest thing ever/.

* Also afraid to bead.

* Also also, I probably should get off the computer. But I can't concentrate on anything (internet is nice and shiny and distracty; offline stuff like books are less so) and staring at the ceiling is boring even when it's through spinning fan-blades (er, not that I spent twenty minutes staring at said ceiling-through-fan-blades as though it were the most fascinating thing ever, or anything)

* Also, ow.

Upside to 750words.com -- I spout most of my depressive emo crap there, and don't bother y'all with it.

Downside to same -- there are things that I mean to make entries out of, and forget, because I've already babbled about them some.

... It takes me usually a bit under 20 minutes to get to 750 words. (My fastest time so far is 15.) Which is a decent speed. (as an aside: I suspect that the person listed on the stats page as having finished in 3 minutes, may have perhaps 'cheated' -- not that there's anything that says you aren't allowed to either type stuff up before going to the web page, or type "a a a a a a" a buttload of times, but I seriously doubt that anyone can type 250 wpm. Anyway, back to talking about me, which is more important.) Not as fast as the last time I was tested, but a) that was back when I was touch-typing with both hands rather than using a freaking stick for about 5/8ths of the letters; b) correcting mistakes, which happen more often now, takes time; and c) I can go faster copying from existing material than pulling words out of thin air, even though the words don't have to mean anything.

Anyway. 20 minutes, from opening the web page to hitting the 750 mark. And I've been doing it, without missing a day, for a week so far.

And yet, when I sit down to actually /write/, I can't get anything out.

I am half tempted to shift to fiction writing for the 750words dump, except that won't give me a place to braindump all the flotsam. Sigh.

One of these days, I /will/ finish something...