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[ysobel]

Had a bit of an oh-fuck moment last night, as I realized part of my funk lately has been unresolved grief. Over a *fictional* event. And I don't feel well enough versed in canon to fic my way out of it. *sigh*

Also: my mental state is kind of like lead balloons right now. I need some (metaphorical!) helium balloons to balance it out. This sounds incredibly self-serving and pathetic, but: those of y'all that are reading this and are willing to give me ammunition to fight sigma, could you please comment with something you like about me? (Particularly recent stuff [eg the fact that I went to college, or that I used to write well ten years ago, doesn't really help *now*], and specific "proof" is better than generalities, but I'll take anything.)

Anon comments are screened, if you want to do it privately.

<3

Comments

[cesy]

Well, from where I am, you look like a scary and impressive expert volunteer who always knows what is going on and is friends with everyone important on DW. I don't know if that helps. You're all important on Support because you're the expert and have the experience to help out with the tricky cases.

oh fuck moments

[vidyuta]

You are one of the kindest most patient people I have ever known. I know it runs in your family. You got good genes in that department. But you also make choices every moment to be considerate of others. You are stronger also than probably almost anyone I have ever met. And while you do not have an easy life, I have never detected one bit of bitterness or resentment. Those are great accomplishments.

[zarhooie]

You are always willing to help with stuff whenever I have questions.
You are supportive of me.
You are a beautiful spirit.

[alexseanchai]

That Sha're fic, the Scotoma remix, whatsitsname, um, *investigates* Whispers of the Gods. The metaphors in said fic.

[rainbow]

When I was told to email you about an issue during closed beta, and I was nervous writing to someone new, you were helpful and funny and made me feel like I was useful.

[lferion]

I love that you keep fighting. That you *care* -- I mean, grieving over a story-event is something I do. I have grieved for Qui-Gon, several iterations of the Doctor (4, 5, 7 & 10 predominantly -- we didn't get an end-story for 8, so in a wierd way he's still never-died if that makes sense?) Sarek (prime), The First Romulan Commander, Marcus (B5), etc. Right now I am grieving for Vulcan. That you feel that kind of depth too is a drawing together thing.

*Hugs you*

[threeplusfire]

I've been there - grieving over a story. It can be so rough. I still remember a dream I had in 2002 about something, still!

Something that is good about you - You are willing to talk about your illness and its effects on your life in a way that is pretty open and makes it easier for others to understand. Being able to talk about a serious illness or disability probably feels strange, I imagine. But I think you de-mystify things, because you make it clear that it is part of your daily life but not your ENTIRE life.

[darthneko]

Despite being down and depressed and worn down from it, you jumped in right off the bat to help with Dreamwidth any way you could. That's more then a lot of people who aren't battling health and depression bothered to do, myself included. I can not tell you how much I admire you for the things you tackle, which seem to universally include helping other people when some might say you'd be totally justified in just concentrating on yourself. There aren't enough words for the admiration.

[dreamatdrew]

You make me smile....

yeah, kinda weak, but it's what I got, and from where I'm sitting, thats pretty good anyway

[draigwen]

OK, well I'm a tad tipsy and typing this on a mobile phone, so forgive me if this isn't the most eloquent thing I've ever written.

Your support answers are the best I've ever seen. I haven't seen much of what you've done on DW but your answers on LJ always gave me inspiration and made me envious.

You inspired me to get more involved in DW when you started submitted bugs, and your high level of involvement is fantabulous.

Every time you mention your family I'm always amazed how much you put up with. I realise you can't just walk away like I can, but even so I can barely put up with my mother once a year and she's not really all that bad.

And you do all this with problems I can't even begin to imagine. You're stronger than you realise and whenever I need strength to get me through the day I consider what you have to contend with.

So that's it. If you want to know something good that you've done, it's to inspire me in so many ways.

Not everyone can run a marathon or be Ghandi or someone equally great. If we're lucky, we'll have managed to influence one or two people in their lives. I'm sure I'm not the only one you have influenced.

I really must go now, the alcohol is likely to get me rambling more. I just hope these word help.

[domtheknight]

Today, when I stupidly approved something without paying attention to an IC you'd already left, and then you asked me about it in #r_i... that was elegant and you didn't make me feel dumb about it even though it was dumb of me, and your additional information was superbly phrased.

[azurelunatic]

You have the kind of long-running history in Support that makes you a legend.