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Apr. 21st, 2022 10:00 pmSo fucking exhausted and frustrated-- kinda at "bang head against wall" mood, though I didn't actually.
My sister and niblings are in town for a few days. She's moving here in a few months (yaaaaay) so had stuff to do with finalizingt house purchase etc. It's the first time seeing any of them since January 2020.
...it's been a chaotic few days.
Theory: they'd drive in Tuesday and stay through Sunday.
Reality: hotel reservation shenanigans mean leaving Friday; packing took longer than expected so by 11pm Tuesday the new plan was for them to get up hella early Wednesday.
Theory: my sister had arranged babysitters so that e.g. in the afternoon babysitter 1 could be with youngest kid for nap time, babysitter 2 could be at park with older kiddos and Aunt Me, and my sister could go tour a daycare. Or a babysitter could do dinner with kids while my mom and sister and I went somewhere for Adult Time
Reality: both babysitters canceled last minute (one sick and one exposed) and the kids were melting down and hyper, so my sister was stuck at the hotel getting nothing done except for keeping any of them from killing each other. Needless to say, AT dinner didn't happen.
Adapted theory: I'd go over to the hotel for a bit and say hi, maybe if I'm lucky get a hug from Youngest (who has never met me)
Reality: Eldest was absorbed in Minecraft when not fighting with Middle, who was running around turning the lights on and then off and then on and then off, and while Youngest decided my aide was her new BFF (complete with tears when we left), I didn't merit anything.
Theory: today we'd get together for dinner, probably pizza in the hotel.
Revised theory: pizza in the park, because a friend of my sisters (B) has a kid (O) who was umpiring a softball game (players mostly 7) and invited her to come with Eldest to watch the game and see if Eldest would be interested in softball. And B was okay with it turning into all the kids plus mom and sister and pizza.
Reality: ...oof where to start.
It was cold and hella windy, and I wasn't dressed right.
The pizza places had like 90+ minute wait and also didn't deliver to parks, just street addresses, so plan changed to doing pizza after, but my mom and I didn't find out until we were there
My mom drove me so I couldn't bail without dragging her away
Eldest was more invested in ladybugs than the game
Also. I usually eat dinner around 6, go to bed right after (for comfort), toilet again at 8:30, and then am in bed for good, though sleep time varies. We didn't leave for the park until 5:45. We didn't leave *from* the park until 7. I didn't get into bed at all until 9:20.
Also my mom wanted to stop ON THE WAY at CVS to pick up meds. I said sure but probably not in a very cheerful tone, and really wanted to bang my head against a wall and/or make unhappy shrieking noises. She didn't stop after all.
(do normal people get bang-head-on-wall urges, or is that another mark in the "maybe autistic but well masked" column?)
It is better now that I've eaten pizza, am in bed, and have had an edible. But aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
My sister and niblings are in town for a few days. She's moving here in a few months (yaaaaay) so had stuff to do with finalizingt house purchase etc. It's the first time seeing any of them since January 2020.
...it's been a chaotic few days.
Theory: they'd drive in Tuesday and stay through Sunday.
Reality: hotel reservation shenanigans mean leaving Friday; packing took longer than expected so by 11pm Tuesday the new plan was for them to get up hella early Wednesday.
Theory: my sister had arranged babysitters so that e.g. in the afternoon babysitter 1 could be with youngest kid for nap time, babysitter 2 could be at park with older kiddos and Aunt Me, and my sister could go tour a daycare. Or a babysitter could do dinner with kids while my mom and sister and I went somewhere for Adult Time
Reality: both babysitters canceled last minute (one sick and one exposed) and the kids were melting down and hyper, so my sister was stuck at the hotel getting nothing done except for keeping any of them from killing each other. Needless to say, AT dinner didn't happen.
Adapted theory: I'd go over to the hotel for a bit and say hi, maybe if I'm lucky get a hug from Youngest (who has never met me)
Reality: Eldest was absorbed in Minecraft when not fighting with Middle, who was running around turning the lights on and then off and then on and then off, and while Youngest decided my aide was her new BFF (complete with tears when we left), I didn't merit anything.
Theory: today we'd get together for dinner, probably pizza in the hotel.
Revised theory: pizza in the park, because a friend of my sisters (B) has a kid (O) who was umpiring a softball game (players mostly 7) and invited her to come with Eldest to watch the game and see if Eldest would be interested in softball. And B was okay with it turning into all the kids plus mom and sister and pizza.
Reality: ...oof where to start.
It was cold and hella windy, and I wasn't dressed right.
The pizza places had like 90+ minute wait and also didn't deliver to parks, just street addresses, so plan changed to doing pizza after, but my mom and I didn't find out until we were there
My mom drove me so I couldn't bail without dragging her away
Eldest was more invested in ladybugs than the game
Also. I usually eat dinner around 6, go to bed right after (for comfort), toilet again at 8:30, and then am in bed for good, though sleep time varies. We didn't leave for the park until 5:45. We didn't leave *from* the park until 7. I didn't get into bed at all until 9:20.
Also my mom wanted to stop ON THE WAY at CVS to pick up meds. I said sure but probably not in a very cheerful tone, and really wanted to bang my head against a wall and/or make unhappy shrieking noises. She didn't stop after all.
(do normal people get bang-head-on-wall urges, or is that another mark in the "maybe autistic but well masked" column?)
It is better now that I've eaten pizza, am in bed, and have had an edible. But aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.