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Oct. 29th, 2021 06:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelLast year I was super into Animal Crossing, though by December I was kind of burnt out ... not completely, but between Halloween and Toy Day there was a lot of eventing. But also I was bonding with my aide S, who also played, and I was planning island designs and stuff.
January was when S got hit by a car, and had to stop working abruptly because badly broken ankle; I heard from her once maybe a week oater, and nothing since. I don't know how she's doing, if she's still in the area, if she's even alive.
In some ways it feels like I had a trauma reaction, like my brain just shut down. I recruited a friend L to take over scheduling my aides, which is probably the only reason I survived January. (L has been helping since, because she likes doing it.)
I don't think I've touched my Switch since. Not just AC but anything. The Yoshi game had gotten to too hard levels, I never got far into Unraveled, and AC was just ... I couldn't. At some point I figured out the link with S and grief/trauma, so I figured I'd wait it out.
Recently Nintendo announced the Nov update for ACNH, and it's fucking AWESOME. I'm not as rabid about Brewster as some people are, but. Fences! Accent walls! Lights! Permanent ladders! Crops! COOKING!! New islands to visit! And it's the day after my birthday so basically a free birthday present? Hell yeah!
(The paid dlc looks awesome too but I'm waiting; I can probably afford it but I want to make sure I actually get back into AC first.)
The update literally had my jaw dropping, and I was getting excited about the game again. Yes there will be many weeds and things to clean up and stuff, but I have online friends that promised to help if I wanted.
Only...
I still haven't touched the Switch.
Partly it's that I'm out of the habit of having my aides get out the Switch as part of the morning routine -- all but one of my aides are new to this year. Partly I kept forgetting about it until after I'd in bed, and I'd think "tomorrow I will remember" and then the next day would spend the whole day on Twitter again.
Today I actually thought of it, during the day, when an aide was even here. And I couldn't do it. Couldn't even ask.
I feel so fucking broken.
January was when S got hit by a car, and had to stop working abruptly because badly broken ankle; I heard from her once maybe a week oater, and nothing since. I don't know how she's doing, if she's still in the area, if she's even alive.
In some ways it feels like I had a trauma reaction, like my brain just shut down. I recruited a friend L to take over scheduling my aides, which is probably the only reason I survived January. (L has been helping since, because she likes doing it.)
I don't think I've touched my Switch since. Not just AC but anything. The Yoshi game had gotten to too hard levels, I never got far into Unraveled, and AC was just ... I couldn't. At some point I figured out the link with S and grief/trauma, so I figured I'd wait it out.
Recently Nintendo announced the Nov update for ACNH, and it's fucking AWESOME. I'm not as rabid about Brewster as some people are, but. Fences! Accent walls! Lights! Permanent ladders! Crops! COOKING!! New islands to visit! And it's the day after my birthday so basically a free birthday present? Hell yeah!
(The paid dlc looks awesome too but I'm waiting; I can probably afford it but I want to make sure I actually get back into AC first.)
The update literally had my jaw dropping, and I was getting excited about the game again. Yes there will be many weeds and things to clean up and stuff, but I have online friends that promised to help if I wanted.
Only...
I still haven't touched the Switch.
Partly it's that I'm out of the habit of having my aides get out the Switch as part of the morning routine -- all but one of my aides are new to this year. Partly I kept forgetting about it until after I'd in bed, and I'd think "tomorrow I will remember" and then the next day would spend the whole day on Twitter again.
Today I actually thought of it, during the day, when an aide was even here. And I couldn't do it. Couldn't even ask.
I feel so fucking broken.
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Date: 2021-10-30 12:44 pm (UTC)But I am really glad you have help with the scheduling.
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Date: 2021-11-03 09:40 pm (UTC)<3