i hear the voices when I'm dreaming

Feeling vaguely human again. Still testing positive for covid (and, apparently, flu B) but symptomatically better... well ok I'm sleeping a lot (12h, up from last week's 14h; at least that's my "lying in the dark with eyes closed" time, not necessarily literally asleep because brains are silly) and still feel constantly tired, but I have a voice again.

Wrist is improving but I'm taking things easy there; crossword is on computer (slower and awkwarder), Duolingo halfheartedly done on computer, other games mostly stopped.

Funny, I'd been thinking I should reduce gaming time anyway 🙃 since it's mostly idle gaming where you check it and upgrade things and do busywork quests to unlock cute things but if you sit down and think you're not really *doing* anything. Guess going from ~9h sleep to ~14h is a very effective strategy at going cold turkey with stuff, especially stuff that would have happened during the 5 hours now spent not awake.

Dreams have been their usual. Several involving creepy crawlies ( deets ) A couple dreams where my eyes keep closing, and in the attempt to fight that (because of course I'm fighting a shapeshifting shark taking the current form of a cat eel hybrid thing) I force my irl eyes open, waking me up. A bunch of dreams about choir rehearsals. One where I was waiting for my dad to pick me up and some guy put his hand on the back of my neck so I yelled that I was being abducted.

(This is of course sleep dreams, not "what I am doing with my life" dreams.)

This week I got myself a clock that a) has a nice big display, b) the option of colorshifting the display (currently a slow roygbiv fade rotation), and c) ability to project onto the ceiling (that sadly doesn't color-change, oh well). It means that when I wake up in the middle of the night I can tell what time it is without having to move. Yesterday I had a multi hour stretch of waking up every half hour...boo. Brains are silly. But the clock makes me ridiculously happy.

Yuletide story is creeping slowly along. I dithered sending it back for a different pinch hitter, given sick + carpal tunnel + haven't written anything in *mumble* years, but I still have time... that and a half-fleshed-out story. Whatever happens it'll technically be the best thing I wrote all year ... looool. (Haven't posted prompts on the "ph prompts here", won't until I definitely have a fill.)

Saw doctor yesterday. Confirmed that it's not covid, flu, RSV, or strep (the latter seemed lsss likely but why not test). Which means... unnamed crud.

Of course my sinuses waited to get involved until hours after telling the doctor they weren't. lol? Thank goodness for DayQuil. Nasal congestion is especially shitty when you can't blow your own nose.

Right now every time I exhale it makes noises that almost sound like velociraptors. It's distracting. I'm supposed to be trying to sleep but augh.

I'm also grumpy because I'd had a ticket to see Fiddler on the Roof tomorrow (local production) and I was really looking forward to it ... but going would be a bad idea for several reasons. I know there's a movie but it's not the same.

Instead I'll probably just binge watch something like The Good Place or Brooklyn 99 or... idk... Bluey...

* Last three days have woken up with a migraine -- I'm assuming it's one multi-day migraine rather than three successive ones. Imitrex is magic, but I've still been feeling like crap

* also the last three days, my tongue has been weirdly sluggish, especially in the mornings. I'm slurring words a bit (anything with s comes out more like sh) and one of the days I couldn't turn my tongue sideways, like the left side wasn't responding. It's worse when I lie down, either because of gravity pulling things back or because the pillows might push my head slightly forward. I don't know if this is a migraine thing (it would be a new symptom if so) or related to the FOP flareup or something unrelated

[Edit: not a migraine symptom. Saturday had no migraine on waking but still had the tongue issues.]

* can also feel something in my mouth, below my bottom teeth; there's a ridge/flap that I can prod with my tongue, and it feels puffy on one side (maybe a salivary gland?) and I don't know if it's new/changed or just I never noticed it before.

* the last week or so I have been getting ravenously hungry at night. My meal schedules haven't changed (11, 2:30, 6) but I used to be fine through the night and now I'm very not. I don't have an aide on duty (my roommate is available in case of emergency but I hate bothering her) so I can't check blood sugar to see if that's tanking or whatever, nor eat something snackish. Not sure what to do. (And this is WITHOUT the "count calories and reduce" the endo suggested.)

* speaking of blood sugar, I am completely crap at remembering to have my aides poke my fingers -- I only ever remember when I don't have someone here or right after eating -- so I looked into getting a continuous glucose monitor. Problem A: insurance won't cover it because I'm not on insulin injections. Problem B: I can get one (paying out of pocket) but the only approved site for the sensor is back of the arm, and you can use a smartphone rather than a separate device but either way it looks like it has to be held right in front of the sensor, which I can't do by myself. (Also from what the person I was talking to about it was saying, I gather it has an 8-hour "memory", so scanning it when I go to bed at 9 and then scanning it when I get up at 10:30 means I can't find out what happens overnight...)

grump.