...grrrr I hate people

[ysobel]

excuse me while I capslock for a moment:

FUCK THE WORLD AND FUCK MY LIFE I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF HAVING TO FUCKING RELY ON FUCKING INCOMPETENT PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT ABLE TO MANAGE THEIR OWN FUCKING LIVES LET ALONE ANYTHING ELSE FUCK FUCK FUCK

::breathes::

I am *so goddamn fucking sick* of my aide M who seems to always be in personal crisis. I keep her employed because she's desperate enough and available/willing enough to fill cracks when no one else is, but a good 50% of the time I want to STAB HER IN THE FACE WITH A RUSTY SPORK

::breathes::

...okay so. M's phone is off right now, because nonpayment, which is quite a frequent occurrence, but I can communicate through her roommate's phone. So I ping to have her come over.

A fucking hour later, I send a followup text asking if she'd left yet. To which I get a text saying that K (other aide) will cover, but she needs 30 min.

Now, there was a previous incident where M said K would cover and it turned out K had no idea and so my roommate had to cover. Turned out that M had accidentally texted K's *husband* instead of K, and he thought she was asking about something else, so he said yes and then probably wondered why she never got back to him, and K didn't realize, and it was a whole big clusterfuck.

So I text K to see if she's aware of covering, so that if not I could just have my roommate cover and yell at M later. After which I find out two things.

One, that M was supposed to have let K know *this morning* if she needed her to cover, and that hadn't happened, so K had other commitments, though she could come in 45 minutes.

Two, that my roommate was dead-to-the-world asleep. Which is fair given that she worked for almost 12 hours today starting at 4am, but it means she can't cover.

If I don't wuss out of it (I am very confrontation-averse) I am going to give M a lecture sometime -- probably saturday, her next scheduled shift -- on how she needs to STOP HAVING FUCKING LAST-MINUTE CRISES FOR FUCK'S SAKE. I mean, I know the nature of last-minute crises is that they're last minute, but it's not fucking fair, either to me or to my other aides, for her to keep pulling "ack I am having Emergency I can't make it" at the literal last fucking second.

I am FURIOUS and I have no one (except myself) to take it out on (and I am impressed that it hasn't turned inward yet) because the aide that's coming is doing both me and M a favor and it's not K's fault I will have been waiting TWO FUCKING HOURS OR MORE TO PEE AND GO TO BED

::rage::

(actually I think I'm only able to maintain the rage because the alternative is sobbing despair)

Comments

[pauamma]

*glares at M*

[amadi]

It's hard to deal with the idea of someone becoming unemployed, but at the same time, you need your aides to be reliable and present on your timetable, not when it suits them. You work around the limited availability of aides enough as it is. I think M needs to know that she's on probation, and any further incidents of not showing up and not arranging a replacement to cover per the schedule can't be tolerated.

[kaberett]

+1. I have rather taken No Third Chances to heart and would def be permitting one more fuck-up only, if that.

[ysobel]

It's less about caring whether or not she's employed, and more ... she's been available when no one else has, and she's willing to come for short visits, so if I fire her there will be times when no one's available. And I sort of like being able to pee and stuff.

I would love to fire her. But she is a unique paradox of irresponsible and indispensible.

(I want Tony Stark to build me a robot aide so that I don't have to deal with people)

[amadi]

Ugh. You don't live in a tiny town, surely some caring, responsible people are looking for this kind of work.

I'm grumbling at the world because I want you to have good care, not at you. Why is this so hard, world?